10. Thrown Away

I ain’t this, i make it useless, I can’t control myself

I kill the rhyme again, I'm comin' sick and on time again
Words manifest from deep inside where people hide
Within it, chemical unbalanced on the triple beam
Fuck what you heard, it's about what I seen
I seen it happen, back hand brand to face smackin'
Definite disorder, now his mindset is blackened
The doctor say he's got the brain of a murderer
This rugged style steals your brian like a burglar
My heart is bleeding and this pain it will not pass
It's not receding and my body going numb
A bad trip child, rolling stoned, keeping high
He don't know what he's doing
He just keeps getting by
Thrown away away, I want to be thrown away
Born sick, nothing in his hands but his dick
He couldn’t pressure, he couldn’t handle shit
For the life he was leading, led him down the path
Where the guns blast, don't give a shit about the god's wrath
Don’t want to jump to the guts of the doctor

Don't tell 'em what’’s real, don’t tell him what’s proper
The situation unclear like gray
And I know it gets worse everyday 

My heart is bleeding and this pain it will not pass
It's not receding and my body going numb
A bad trip child, rolling stoned, keeping high
He don't know what he's doing
He just keeps getting by
Thrown away away, I want to be thrown away

I am a mess, I've made a huge mess
I can't control myself, I'm losing it
I've split all my marbles
Cause I see you inside of me
Sometimes I want to be thrown away
Cause I see you inside of me
Sometimes I want to be thrown away
A hyper spaz, and that is the way
Sometimes I want to be thrown away

Cause it’s in my head…….